Now our summer is coming to an end since he has football practice in the morning and I have color guard practice later in the day. With our conflicting schedules we aren’t getting to see each other as often as we were used to but we decided that even if we only got to see each other for a few minutes every day then that was okay since some is better than none. Once school started the only time we really got to see each other was when we were passing each other in the hall, when we were getting something out of our locker or if we were lucky on Thursdays football practice would end around the same time as band practice did and lucky for us we parked almost right beside each other. Yes we would get to see each other on some Saturdays or Sunday after noon’s but it still wasn’t what we had grown used to over the summer when we were together every day. So soon I started having band competitions on Saturday and Raylyn was such a sweet boyfriend since he came to all the ones he could. Little did I know the day of Morgan county night of bands when my color guard friends got me out of the house that was the day Raylyn asked my mom if he could marry me! I know most people don’t think anything about that anymore but to me it meant a lot that he loved me enough to ask my mom. So by now I have put that hurt look in his eyes on the way back from the beach behind me since I hadn’t seen it since and he never said anything. But then about a week or so after he asked my mom if he could someday marry me I started to see that look come through every day. One night when he called me he sounded up set so I finally asked him what was he not telling me, what was going on at home. That’s when he broke down, I never pictured Raylyn as the kind of guy to fall to tears but he did and I was scared. He started to tell me how he couldn’t take it anymore that life wasn’t worth living if it was this hard. I couldn’t understand why he was saying this so I very timidly asked him to tell me why. And that’s when I learned why he had that hurt look in his eyes. And for the first time with him I had nothing to say, it was all I could do to keep from crying too.